What to ask yourself if you haven’t created that dream yet

I’m a planner.  I love to have a plan, and when I don’t, I figure out how I can create one. Manifesting and planning the life you want is a journey and it’s one that we all have to be flexible and sometimes patient in creating. But how can you make things transform more quickly when you want to create that something, whether it be a relationship, a job, an experience or a situation? I can tell you that discipline and keeping at it, while at the same time letting go, is a large part of the recipe. This, however, is easier said than done when you wanted that something yesterday.  

I remember wanting to conceive my son.  When I turned 40 I had an internal panic.  Where is my husband?  How can this be possible that he still hasn’t shown up- and what about that baby I want to create?  I was filled with so many “why?” questions. The most immediate solution in my head was to not give up and believe in all my heart and trust my intuition that someone was out there for me and a baby was in my future.  

My husband did appear when I was 40 and my intuition told me he was the one, but it unfolded more slowly than expected. The planner in me said, “Great, if this is the right guy and we are in our 40s, this will go quickly and by 42 I’ll be pregnant.” 

Whew. Not so fast. Wrong. 

I was 42 and I still wasn’t getting pregnant.  How could this be?  My mom birthed ten children until she was 44.  How could my path be so different?  

Once again, I went into planning mode. I went to a fertility specialist and started IUI procedures.  I was convinced it would work.  It didn’t. I tried again.  It didn’t work. I tried a third time and I had a chemical pregnancy.  I thought this was a sign to keep at it, it would surely work. But, six IUI’s and still no baby. 

Your intuition is truth and that is why it is our most powerful guide on this journey.

I was mentally, emotionally and physically exhausted.  

Like many, I go into fighter mode when I’m exhausted.  I decided IVF (In Vitro Fertilization) was my last resort.  I had originally feared the thought of putting shots in my body, but I was beyond that concern.  I couldn’t understand why it was difficult and why I thought in my heart I should be pregnant and it wasn’t happening.  So, I said to myself, “What if this is what I need to do to bring this soul into the world?”  The first IVF was unsuccessful and the doctor told me I should use a donor egg.  

I won’t even write in words what I wanted to respond when that doctor said that to me.  Needless to say, I went to a different Fertility clinic for my second IVF and eventually conceived my son.  

If you are reading this and you are a woman who wants to be a mom, don’t give up. And if your intuition tells you something, don’t let anyone- not even a doctor- sway your intuition.   

Your intuition is truth and that is why it is our most powerful guide on this journey.  That’s why I write what I write.  I wish everyone would  use the gift of intuition and use it as often and as much as possible. It makes your own life journey easier and ultimately, enhances the lives of others.​​

What I learned from this experience, was not just to trust my intuition, but to face my fears. The second IVF cycle I was at my max and I said to myself, I’ll find another way if this doesn’t work. I have done everything in my power to create this dream and I will let the outcome go and figure out a different path if this doesn’t work.  The outcome was my little boy, who I cherish every day. 

Always ask yourself, What if……

What if that doctor was wrong in his assessment? (he was)

What if you will have that baby with your own eggs?(I did) 

What if you can be just like that pregnant woman walking down the street very soon? 

That upset thinking, “why isn’t it me?” is your intuition telling you, this is what you want to create for yourself. So say thank you to the universe for the communication.  

What do you fear about your desire or dream?  Can you turn it into a “what if”?  Energetically, I had been fearful of a number of things about getting pregnant, along with IVF and concerns that almost everyone has in having a child.  But I knew I needed to face that obstacle, and what came of it was well worth the difficulty. 

Face your fear.  Be flexible with creating the outcome. There is always a way.